虽万千人吾往矣！

 

 

 

Are people nice and kind naturally?

Do people see the world by an indifferent heart?

Can people try their best to keep promises?

............

 

I didn't give any doubt till the time i got confused by the people around.

 

I have been deeply depressed by those who only smile and say hi when they need your hand.

Be strangers if you think someone is a stranger;

Be friends if you think you would give love to someone as always.

Show your lofty love by giving but not taking if you really want to be the one, though you dont have to. 

Yet it would not be beautiful if that reverses.

People bare hearts when there is love in both, can you honestly imagine how embarrassing it would be if otherwise?

Is it gorgeous to find someone with your true feeling about the sentimental difference in heart rather tracing out the league table of people's favourable hands.

Do you believe that there is not any positive correlation when you regress friends to what appears to one's natural profile, poor or rich, glamorous or dull? 

Does it sound weird if keep talking about someone you have never seen, even a glance, never talked, even a hi-bye....

Can it be categorised to be 'known' if you may not recognise each other when meet on the street?

 

Can people be forgotten by a cheating excuse, or even worse, no excuse?

Are people really happy about what they are living on?

Can people lend a hand without expecting any return?

Will people be ashamed when they are innocently taking if they have ever given any pain?

Do people care about you for a reason other than love?

.........

 

Are people really unapproachable?

Did I misunderstand the real world?

 

All this reminds me of The Truman Show for no reason. 

What you see, you hear, you smell....everything you can feel about the world is far more complicated than you think.

'In case I dont see ya! good afternoon, good evening and good night.' 

Being brave to be yourself and smile at the world you may not be familiar with, isn't that beautiful?!

 

Do you think a happy life comes from the process of being yourself pursuing the goal,

rather than keeping taking from others to overcome your constraint at every tiny stage of life?

 

 

记不清那天是如何跌撞着走回家，唯一的记忆就只是一个没有颜色的世界，冰得让人发抖，宣告着冬的终结……

 

很多的记忆已经连不成故事， 只是些没有颜色的片段，带着他们的温度散落在我的生命里。

喜欢闭着眼睛看世界，看到的便不是这个世界，也不是你我，而是生命的脉络。

这一年，很冷，每天倚着窗，我只是在等待一束冬日的暖阳，任我消融在你的手心，美丽如斯。

 

雾气正浓，我垂死在风中，是否是你点燃了一只烛？虽不猛烈，却足以续命。

我贪婪的拥着即将泪竭的烛，流浪在新年的夜。

细雨蒙蒙，弥散在我的周围，是否是你暖着我的手，一路相伴？

不愿离去，暮春的夜，寒得刺骨，我已没了家。

烈日虽浓，我却在发抖，时而有微笑为我御寒。而我只知道，那不是你。

我只能怀念，你手心的温度。

 

这一年，很冷……

 

你驻足，在我的门前，我微笑，牵起你的手，再不放开。

最后一缕霜雪，如期而至，我捧着他跌撞着走回家，至寒的霜雪将我冰成雕塑。

你们的爱怜，融我为一汪水，和缓的冲刷着生命的基石。

 

下一年，你承诺给我一个融融春日。

牵你的手，摘取艳阳下最娇嫩的那朵桃花；

用左手的无名指触及我生命中最暖的那缕血脉。

 

你的承诺，你可记得？

有些冷.昏昏沉沉睡了一天.梦到好多故人,怀念好多往事.

 

天黑了,我醒了,梦也醒了,却发现只是梦一场,无限悲凉,思念却如泉涌般不可遏制.

那些阳光明媚,车如流水马如龙的记忆,不知何时都已被冠上了往事的名字,渐渐变得模糊与陌生.

我们总是无可奈何的遗忘,却又偏偏要不经意的想起.他们来的轻如风,薄如云,淡如水,一旦来了,便甘如醇,甜如醴,却又惑于智,久久不散.

 

只隐隐觉得,不想一个人,不想就这样一个人....

 

当水荡涟漪,轻风漫舞时,再想起故人,念起往事,会是如何一种心情?

也许,也是不想一个人,却未必不想就那样一个人...

 

Here seems like a forgotten land...

 

lets go through the summer, a busy and short summer!

not like others who did whatever great interns or excellent researches, my summer was fulfilled by travelling around and no work!

 

China

i bet u guys have rarely heared of the place called Huan Ren, where only cars could reach. we drove in the middle of nowhere, the only things could be observed were green mountains and roads with nobody on. floated on the river for hours, that was such a peaceful and clear mood i bearly enjoyed in cities. i guess it is not that easy to find a place with blue sky, fresh air and drinking water in the river around the town, especially in China.

 

The U.S.

We promised my little brother Ricky a trip to Disneyland. although ppl suggested us to sign up with a travel agency as it was tough if not driving in the States, yet i insisted my belief of travelling alone, which was proved to be a good idea by my family afterwards. We reserved a hotel around Disneyland and i was shocked by the numerous attractions within the Disneyland. two day passes were enough for my 8-going-9-yr old brother and 49-yr old mum...why did i say that? Disneyland Park opens from 8am to midnight and California Advanture opens from 10am to 10pm...not because ppl are crazy, just they worth playing around for that almost all-day long with no overlapped attractions and long stop. the thing i loved most was the fireworks at night, which was amazzzzzzing and i believe u would love it if u have ever seen it! that was the first time that i connected fireworks and music together and discovered how fit they were! I love the musical shows, the Block Party Bash....and everything!

 

Universal Studio has also got things to play with, but i did not quite enjoy them. all the treasurable memories came from the one-hour ish round trip that i saw CSI filming, where they filmed the sea in King Kong and famous streets in movies and experienced the explosion of tube, car crash, flooding.....unbelievable!

 

Hollywood is not far from Universal Studio. but it was hard work to walk all the way down the hollywood street...still worth taking a look at the Chinese theater, where i discovered how big feet Tom Hanks had!

 

Canada

Shall I call Vancouver my second home? maybe.

I have been dreamed to have a real trip with friends driving all the way together since i was little and i made it this summer! six of us drove along the Rocky Mountain, where Brokeback Mountain is located. Tired! really tired all the way driving! both the two little guys--Ricky and Cindy were quite keen on the water from the glacier, which is said to have the magic to make ppl younger after drinking and they discovered each other to become shorter at the same time after drinking....the shopping mall which is considered to be the largest in the world is located in Edmonton (if i spell it right) and we roughly guess it crosses 36 street blocks that amazed me! on the way driving, lots of wild lives appeared on the high way, such as elks and wolves...but its a pity that we missed bear.

 

London

what happened when i was back to the UK in the middle of Sep?

that was a disaster, or maybe i shall see it as a rare chance to know something about London's map. I travelled around between Cambridge and London everyday looking for a property. it was hard! especially in central london at the time when everybody is back and demanding a property. i was kind of naive to expect to get one for 4 ppl in a week! I probably could say now that i know london, maybe precisely central london and shall i be pround of that?...but luckily we have got one finally! its becoming a "home", which is not just a simple word, but a feeling that we are working for!

 

I missed the first week before term started and i am now just like a fresher that knows nothing about the school and fairs and events and...everything.

 

there are still lots of uncoming things ahead that i have totally lost the idea...

anyway, summers gone and im still on the way!

在18层的高空仰望，天似乎更蓝，更远，更不可触及，而伸手可及的雾气，又让我如临云端。

瞬间的迷惘，彷徨在梦醒的边缘，是否真的是云深不知处呢？

 

 

站在窗边，看人群匆匆，看花儿开了又谢，看鸟儿飞了又还，看月儿升了又落，我只愿做局外人。

转瞬的安宁，游走在红尘之外，天上，人间。

 

 

那轮斜阳由东而西，朝升暮落，是在为谁而忙碌？

海纳百川，日夜川流不息，是在为谁而奔波？

时间走远，不喑尘世的你我又是在为谁而仓促呢？

 

 

飞扬的青春，不再只为天上人间而心醉。

流转的年华，不再只为云深知处而奔波。

裙角轻摆，却掩饰不住那从不刻意张扬的锋芒。

眼角含泪，却不再是为了胜利亦或失败。

双眉低垂，却是一种地地道道的妩媚。

含而不露，而却一触即发。

渐渐懂得，执着的同义词，不再是殉道，而幻化成一只骄傲的鸟。

我们，成长在风轻云淡的漠然中，却又绝比那更张狂与不羁。

孩童的世界在时间面前一点点的崩塌，却又筑起另一座记忆的堡垒。

 

 

人生如梦，却比梦更摄人心魄。

虽不能如梦境般尽如人意，却远比如意更沁人肺脾。

亦张扬，亦沉稳，我们以不同的步伐走着……

 

也许有走过弯路的小溪，

却从未被大海拒绝过。

也许有高处不胜寒的楼阁，

却同在一片蓝天下。

 

 

让我们立一座墓碑，悼念已逝的年少轻狂。

 

 

hav been staying at home for a week ish.....still got a few days to be smoothed out.

 

it is said on the astrology book that Libra is a lazy and irresolute constellation, which has been applied on me perfectly.

 

Mum and my little brother are coming back home at the beginning of July and Dad left for another city for business. thanks to all those have just mentioned, i got to stay in such a big house on my own for about 2 weeks. i was trying to call all the friends possible to kill time with me but as a result of examination period, i realize that time is not killable...

 

time flies when u r busy & happy but stays when u r bored. shall i call it a magic?

 

Yao kept calling to persuade me to go to his home but it would push me into a more embarassing situation if i did so due to some complicated reasons...or just simply due to the irresolute personality of Libra me? i have thought about this helpless situation im facing thoroughly and staying alone might be the optimal solution.

 

how can i imagine that im living in such a similar life at home and in the UK. get up and log on the internet, take a shower and prepare for the breakfast, make calls and be bored, watch movies and cook for dinner.......repeated everyday and rarely leave the bed....

 

thank god, Yao is coming on 3rd but mum and bro are back the the previous day...so im sorry to say that he would not contribute any to this embarassing situation. but still a good thing to be looked forward to^_^

 

lol...complaining is an efficient way to calm down, but unfair to others, i have to admit..

i have to wait....till th day iv got something to do...i dont wanna say that waiting is the best solution in many situations, but it truely is...though i hate waiting.....

 

 

as an ending of such a meaningless and nonlogical blog, i got to put on something to cheer me up....i still love my family, love yao, and love my friends, im looking forward to the coming back of my family and visiting of yao in a few days....im still a happy girl^_^

 

PS: Congratulations to yao! i know u will do well and i know u can be better! and hopefully im not too bad on the coming exam results.

9个半小时的飞机，就这样无声无息的把我带到了世界的另一个角落。

 

伦敦，温哥华，对我而言，似乎并无两样。

也许唯一的不同，就是在温哥华，有我的家。

 

现世安稳，庭院恬淡。

 

坐在蓝色的摇椅上，呆呆的思考，只有窗外昏黄的灯光让我有熟悉的感觉。

唏嘘间，恍若隔世。

 

习惯性的翻查邮件，空空如也。仿若曲终人也散。

风过，只落尽满地萧萧叶……

 

闲人。

无心读书。

 

庸人。

匆匆。

渺小，卑微，就这样慢慢矮下去，直矮到尘埃里，却不曾开出一朵小花。

我与张爱玲是不同的。

 

生命的脉络从不曾清晰，随风飘着。

似乎一处被世界遗忘的孤岛。

也许这里曾有过文明，也许曾傲立于世，

也许只是一片废墟，荒草丛生，自亘古而今。

也许，仅似座围城，

皆烟消云散。

 

吴宫花草埋幽径，

晋代衣冠成古丘。

并非物是人非，

并非年华似水，

是谁说过，

时间仍在，

是我们飞逝……

 

却留下记忆几许？

只因庸碌而过，

不曾留下只言片语。

 

对于身边的人们，我是羡慕的，

他们不曾飞逝，

却幽幽的走过，

爱过，恨过，成功过，失败过，尝试过……

不只在他们的路上，

也在别人的心里。

 

然而，我，

只是一只矮到尘埃却不曾开出花的过客……

 

space换了主题

我也换了心情

 

wish today a brand-new life！

Question：

 

本周问题： 狗狗会放屁吗？

Happy Valentine's Day to those who are loving and also to those who are being loved!

 

 

I was planning to have a normal day yesterday, but I failed....

 

Everyone in the school were...lets say Eudemonic, nomatter they are alone or with someone they love;  the roses down in the reception of HH hall were full of love and happiness; inevitably, a number of people forgot the lectures in the afternoon in the name of love and went out to have their romantic Valentine's dinner....all  these touched me deeply and......

 

Hannah was with me the whole way till...............................................whatever, wish u a happy valentine's day as well, Hannah.

 

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well, afterall, i went shopping with Jenny this afternoon after French class and we two had a great dinner in an Indian restaurant till half nine, which is really sweet.

 

 

This is my Valentine's Day..... and ......

 

However, Happy Valentine's Day to the youth, also the parents! Wish you all a romantic and sweet V. Day indeed!

 

 

 

well, iv got loads of work to do then......only God could save me!

 

 

Havent updated this space for long......not because i dont want to, but really dont know what i should put on.

 

 

have thought about the word "friend" for long and looked back on the past half year.

 

people i know, there are a lot; people who know me, just a few; people could be called friends, only one or two....

 

does it sound sad or truely a failure?

 

a friend made me a trope, saying that " when you are buying oranges, you will never know which is better just by looking at them as you are not an expert, but if you pick them up and compare, you may be able to find the best one." analogy exists between choosing oranges and making friends. while although i pick up an orange, yet i cannot be sure whether it is good inside. similarly, it just takes a few seconds to know a person, but takes months, years or even your whole life  to understand a person...compared to know a person in a few seconds, i prefer to making a friend in months....maybe im just childish to think in this way...who knows! it may be only a kind of preference, very individual and very large variation or even biases a lot.

 

 

helpless question..embarrassing situation.. and i feel bad about my preference...or there is something wrong with myself....God! i feel so bad!

 

im not able to continue to write.....

假期总是过的很快……

 

是不是都还没有开始就已经结束？

 

 

back from Scotland.

 

safe journey, pretty city, terrific time and wonderful vacation!

 

how are you guys back in China? hope u really enjoyed ur vacation and miss u all~

 

not too many new movies on this Christmas...a little bit disappointed

 

there has been a bit too much for the beginning of King Kong, the sad ending has been kept still. what a tragedy!  "it is the beauty that killed him.." have been deeply touched

 

i like Narnia. the war, the wardrobe, the girl n faun, the prophecy, the witch, the boy n sweet, the lion, and the family, made up the story, acted the story and spirited those who watch the story. life is full of challenges and uncertainties, confront and fight!

 

The Producers is quite a different movie, or shall we call it musical show? beautiful music and funny content. i was laughing and enjoying.  the worst play, the worst director, the worst actors, how could they give rise to a successful show?

 

have started watching The Lost. fantastic!

 

cannot sleep....thinking to go on a diet so that could fit in my dress...come on!

 

uploaded some photos from Scotland. not too many, but could contribute to a fabulous memory.

have not been used to having vacations.....get up pretty late everyday and sitting in some corner in my room thinking what i want to do, should do and going to do....or just day-dreaming.

 

 

sometimes, i think of those who have gone, they must eat all the most delicious food i alway desire as much as they wish, so jealous!

 

sometimes, i think of those who are staying, they may be hiding themselves in some corner somewhere and release their mind to dream, i am not alone!

 

sometimes, i think of you my honey, have been thinking to visit which has been definitely rejected. sweety, i just want to see you and stay with you.

 

sometimes, i think of my family and new home, cannot stop imaging what the new coming furnitures look like, whether my parents and little cute brother are happy, healthy, and enjoying life in China.

 

sometimes, i think of the dogs on the road, are they cold and lonely? they may want a home or want to play with snow. tears burst out when have the idea that they may stand outside the window and watching others lying beside an andiron and unpacking presents on Christmas Eve.

 

sometimes, i think of the trip to Scotland and Christmas shopping, smiling in the corner and feeling too excited to sit down! 

 

sometimes, i think of myself, a girl who is really hungry and cold now, thinking my vacation plan which is absolutely messed up.

 

what am i thinking of?

no idea!

maybe everything, maybe nothing....

 

 

honey, i need you!

Vacation!

 

I have been waiting for u for long, moi moi moi!

 

Too excited to stay quietly!

 

Christmas and New Year are ahead welcoming!

 

Movie time as well! Loads of movies r going to be on shown, Cannot miss them!

 

Have a safe jouney and enjoy ur vacation with parents, friends, and absolutely beautiful snow in China for those who have gone or are going back home!

 

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year for all my friends!

 

Love u all and May you all a great vacation!!!

 

习惯了沈阳霸道的冬天，刺骨，干燥，却隐隐觉得暖暖的，也许是因为虽不强烈却依然明媚的阳光；也许是因为虽凛冽却浓厚的雪；也许是因为虽陌生却倍感亲切的穿流的人群。

 

 

伦敦的冬天有种清凉的寒。伦敦的寒透着一种孤独，一种落寞，一种冷傲，虽不刺骨，却寒着心。这样的冬伤感，寂寞，甚至极端。

 

 

雾色朦胧，耳边响着jazz，有人问起曾经这里是怎样一个世界。默默的闭上眼睛，让思绪自由的舞蹈，慢慢的落在旧时的伦敦。高高的四轮马车，载着身着燕尾服，手拄拐杖的先生和雍容的小姐，走在并不平坦的路上。路边依然灯红酒绿，却承载着更多的命运，幸与不幸，有人在舞池翩翩起舞，也有人在阑珊处叹息。是否是宿命的延续，伦敦的天空似乎依然飘着这淡淡的忧郁，淡淡的雍容，与淡淡的无奈。

 

 

这样的季节，有些人恋爱，有些人分开。有些人孤独的落泪，有些人疯狂的舞蹈。有些人包裹着手脚，有些人赤裸着双肩。是不是恋爱的人想着分开，分开的人想着恋爱；是不是落泪的人并不寂寞，舞蹈的人却在叹息；是不是藏起手脚的人并不温暖，赤裸的人并不寒冷？不得而知……只是这样的季节，徘徊在情感的边缘。让人相濡以沫，也让人相忘于江湖。让人疯狂的宿醉，也让人冷静的思考。让人尽情的宣泄，也让人堆积着悲伤。

 

 

天很清澈，却不亲切；路人在微笑，却依然陌生。伦敦的冬，是风轻云淡的漠然，还是高处不胜寒的孤傲？是否让悲伤的人坚强，忙碌的人恬静，快乐的人沉稳？是否在某个角落绰约着你的舞姿？是否有这样一个舞台，你是Dancing Queen？舞着真实的自己，也许没人看得懂，舞步却不凌乱，这样的冬，寒着心；这样的舞步，却暖着灵魂。

我要做勤劳的人！

It is sunny and a bit chilli outside, I was sitting in the Brunch Bowl n talking with an old friend, for long.

 

 

we talked about our new friends, yes, we have new friends severally, but we are still the pair who bares our hearts. we talked about the uni life, which is not easy but worth struggling for. we talked about our old friends, who have built an absolutely beautiful memory for us all. and we talked about our future, love and dream....

 

 

It is sweet to have a close chat with a trustworthy friend as we need to clear up our souls periodically and target our lives when we are getting lost. we encourage each other and trust each other. It is nice....

 

 

Enough! Black days are enough! It should be the right time to drive them away!

 

 

there is a kind of feeling cannot be told

there is a kind of fidget cannot be helped

there is a kind of grief cannot be shared

there is a kind of love cannot be expressed

there is a kind of sadness cannot be detected

there is a kind of tear cannot be weeped

......

there is a kind of days that are black

 

there is a girl who is not really herself and has been disturbed

 

 

 

 

自己剪了头发，意料之中的又剪坏掉了……

 

 

还记得这个summer我的头发也成了我可怜的牺牲品，为了藏起剪坏掉的头发，还特意买了一顶帽子。便不得不冒着中暑的危险每天顶着一顶大帽子度日，情何以堪啊！？

 

 

我已经痛下决心下次一定把头发剪得漂亮一些！ 这个周末就先帮我亲爱的小绵羊修修毛吧！

 

 

不过看来这阵子又要戴着帽子度日了……